Tuesday, February 15, 2005

 
It seems all my other buddies had died out on their blogging.. I did as well, but I guess a resurrection is needed once in a while.. Lets see, the Chinese New Year holidays are gone, and it's back to more projects and... more projects! The burden is really heavy on all of us, but I guess we'll juz have to bear wif it till the deadline finally arrives..

Anyway, below are juz some pics I took during my CNY "bai nian" spree.. They are taken at my grandma's anywayz, where all my relatives gather.. I dun noe when I'll be back to post again, but I will.. It's juz a matter of waiting.. LoL!


Me & my pretty cousin.. Posted by Hello

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**fallen angel** Sunday, January 16, 2005

 
There are some things in life that we can't hide from. We can't hide from the past, neither can we hide from the relentless clockworks of time and fate. Frankly, I donnoe y I'm sounding so melodramatic, but I guess I juz can't keep everything inside all the time.. So how in the hell am I supposed to vent my inner struggles here while not revealing too much at the same time? I hope the following words will suffice..

Pulling myself from the aftermath of the past 1.5 years wasn't easy. Tose who know me well enuf wld noe exactly wad while tose who dun, plz dun even try to ask. I admit tat it wasn't anybody's fault but mine. I bought it upon myself & tat's as simple as it gets.

After being thru Hell and back, it's not like I started to look for "greener pastures" immediately. In fact, I tink it was a full 8 months b4 someone finally took over tat scar in me. I tried to stay in the shadows abt it, but of cos, pple can alwayz see thru the disguise. How to deal wif it? I guess playing along is the onlie way to go but I dun blatantly tok or declare abt it of cos. But I juz feel sometimes all the jokes can get a bit too far. It's ok for dem to make fun of me abt it, but I HATE to see it when it is her getting the brunt of it. Yes, tese tings r unavoidable in tese situations, but I juz hope it doesn't get too far.

The odds are already stacked HUGELY against me, near-impossible in fact. But the inevitability of the question of committment lingers. I had placed too much stakes in the past, and when I lost, I got hit fuckin' hard.. Right in the heart. The future seems bleak, and I pray tat for once, just fuckin' once, someplace, somewhere, somehow, fate will at least gimme some slack..

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**fallen angel** Sunday, January 02, 2005

 
Yes, your eyes are not playing tricks on you.. Tis is a post! Well, it's the dawn of the new year, so I tot I'd at least show some responsibility for my cob-web growing blog. Lets see.. 2004 had indeed been an eventful year.. Lotsa stuff happened and I dun tink I wanna list dem all but lets juz simply say it's been another year in my life. How cliche can tat get? C'mon, gimme a break!

Thankfully, new year's eve for me was great as I went on a karaoke outing wif 4 of my frenz from my poly, Chin Eng, Sallys (Qiu and Choo) and Pei Shan. Wif my limited knowledge of Chinese songs, I can't fully agree my money spent was worth it, but for the duration spent, I'd say it was! All in all, it was great.. And one more thing, why did u all sabo me to sing such a difficult song at the start! Wei Yi by Wang Li Long was such a high key song loh! Liewz.. LoL!


I had no idea CE was doing tat pose.. Wad a natural! :D Posted by Hello


The ladies.. PS sang a lot tat dae :P Posted by Hello






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**fallen angel** Sunday, November 28, 2004

 
Life had been pretty stagnant these days as well as my blog.. Hmm, my work contract finished a week ago already, so I am pretty much slacking tese days.. Sounds like a boring life? Hell no! How much I relish freedom now. The keyboard & mouse at my grasp, Half-Life 2 to kill the time.. Ahh yes, this is the life.. Other than tat, I'm kinda sad my poly class wun be having a proposed Sentosa outing due to lots of pple being busy wif work etc.. Oh well, no harm done.. ;) More updated coming soon!


Ahhh... Better than drugs... Posted by Hello


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**fallen angel** Friday, November 12, 2004

 
Wooahhh, has it been tis long since I neglected my blog?! Oh my, time does fly indeed.. Oh well, been too fuckin' busy at work to even have the will to blog I guess.. All my frenz who r working mostly do 6-8 hours shifts but for me 10 hours is already like a blessing! I work 12 hours on both weekends and public holidays!! I'm juz a fuckin' part-timer fot Christ's sake.. Haiz.. But thank god the job makes up wif the pay, which actually astonished me when I checked my bank acct.. Note: Just so to ensure pple won't ask me to belanjah dem meal, I won't reveal my pay **Cue evil laugh** ;)

Other than tat, life is good.. Slacking at home is really so damn relaxing to me now as off-days r like blessings.. LoL! Oh yeah, and Half-Life 2 is finally coming out and I pre-ordered it! It's been a long 3-year wait for wad is speculated as the best Pc game ever made in history.. Addiction & euphoria, here I come! 1 more week onlie!




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**fallen angel** Tuesday, October 26, 2004

 
When you lookin into the eyes of the one you used to love, time slows down.. Memories flash by.. Heartbreaks & scars..

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Holding you dearly through life's tearful rains,
Just to prove my love, I fail again & again.
The things between us that set us apart,
Still cry for forgiveness, from my broken sad heart.
The truth that I love you, what more can I say?
Then again to be with you, I get down & I pray.
You tell me that we're finished, to forget the past & dry my sad eyes
But my heart will not listen, for your love it cries.
You tell me it's over, you say we're through,
But it's the love from my heart that stops me from letting go of you.
But hope for me is already so slim,
When so often you are together with him.
My being cries to love and hold on to you again,
In hopes for the better with less sadness & pain.
Sleepless nights & striken with sickness I am enduring,
With no sense of time and a conscience that's weakening.
Countless times you've forgiven me for all my wrongs,
But I must write this poem to express my pain which lasts so long.
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And yes, I wrote it myself..



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**fallen angel** Friday, October 22, 2004

 
Results are out for my exams! Lets see..

HPI: D+
Pmic: C+
FPath: C+
OC2: C
Biochm2: C
CSAS3: B
PSpk: B

Hmm, judging by my "mediocre" achievements, I guess I am not too proud am I? LoL! Ok, to tink of the bright side, everything in my results are 60% or above (except HPI), which means it's an acceptable results. But I was disappointed nonetheless, cuz I was really aiming for more B's than this. HPI (Human Physiology & Immunology) was a real shocker as I was aiming high for it.. I have maintained so-so results for it in the tests in the 70% range, but I screwed it for the exams?!

I guess it's better to have negative feelings after exams more, as the results which come out is alwayz the OPPOSITE of how u expect it.. LoL! So if u feel confident, ur results will be sh1tty.. But if u feel bad abt the results, it will somehow come out better! Ahhh, the irony of life in all it's fuckin' glory!


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**fallen angel**